Thank You Disney, Now I’m Disenchanted

If you’re the type who has watched too much Disney movies during youth, then you are most likely going to relate to this post. WARNING: not for too serious, too principled, self-righteous people. Purely superficial.

Disney movies made us feel like a princess, a sugarcoated damsel in distress. For sure Cinderella will remain a pauper if it were not because of fairy godmother who bridged her romance with her prince. And Ariel will remain a quasi-fish if not because of the prince she saved. If you were watching these Disney princesses, you would want a tiara, a scepter, and your royal couch. And you want a big wedding sans the talking animals.

I used to watch a lot of Disney movies when I was young. I even watched Barbie as the Princess and the Pauper when I was 16. I am almost two-and-a-half decades old and still, I still dream big of my wedding. It took me years to realize that my wedding ideas should belong to me and not to other people. I will be the bride in white dress, long trail and veil.

Almost phantasmagorical.

The thought of marriage made me cringe before. That is because I took it seriously: like babies crying, bills, and marital fights. Taking into consideration all the failed marriages I saw on TV, I told myself not to be involved in such social and emotional suicide. But not weddings. Before, I thought there is a way to have your wedding without getting married. I just wanted to walk down the aisle and materialize every fantasy I had in my mind, without the commitment. If I could walk down the aisle every year, like celebrating my birthday, I would be happier. Or so I thought.

Thanks to Disney, now I’m back to reality. It’s like I was already soaring high and then gravity pulled me down to earth with such great force. Honey, marriage is a big responsibility and you need time to think about it and yadda yadda… If you want to get married, make sure your partner also does. If you feel like tying the knot with somebody, make sure the feeling is mutual. If it’s just one way, it’s more than stalking; you’re a flaming psycho.

So I still have a lot of thinking to do. I should not want to be married just because I want a big wedding. If every Disney princess movie has a sequel, I might have had a change of heart.

So there’s no marriage for me yet. I would like to indulge in this disenchantment first, until such time comes when I can bear the thought of crying babies, bills and marriage whatnot.

And I have to have a groom.