My Idea of Future

In as much as I don’t want to disclose what it is that I see in my future (is that called vision?), I’m afraid that my vision might change if I let nobody take a peek on it. Drama queen.

When asked about where do I see myself five years from now, I was at point blank. Hmmm what would I be doing five years from now? I honestly said “I have no idea.” True enough, I really can’t see what I am a few years from now. This isn’t what a Bui Doi should be.

It took me years to realize what I wanted for college. Does it mean it will take me years to again realize what I want for my future? For sure, most people would want to be “successful” (really, how does one define success?) but how?

My first job application didn’t work out, which gave me ideas on what I don’t want for my future (that job). Maybe the reason why I am still confused on what I really want to be is because I do not have a specific field of specialization. People have theirs and they earn from it. I was quite overwhelmed with all those job offers online that I did not have time to think whether or not I’d be effective in each of those.

I would like to take another set of years to study again. I would like to get an MA. And by doing so, I would like to teach. Teaching and Master’s go hand-in-hand. You’re both a student and an instructor at the same time. Can life be any better?

I’m working on my application as an instructor. I was already recommended by my former mentors and I can never be more grateful that they believe in me (drama queen). But seriously, I need this. I need to learn more and to share what I’ve learned, and you know, MA. I just can’t be satisfied.

So here’s my plan: if I get accepted as a junior instructor, I’ll teach and earn. Then eventually I will take my Master’s. After that, if I’m asked what my vision is a few years later, I am sure to answer, again, “I don’t know.” I guess I’m like that. My idea of future is taking and planning two steps at a time. And it is only effective for five years. If the five years are over, then I have another planning to do. It’s just like that.